"do you know what it's like to die alive?"

i can't stop listening to next to normal
it has nothing to do with my situation
but of course i take bits of lyrics, halves of lines, segments of words
and bang boom wiggle wiggle--it's about me.
thus i ... create?
so i can't get it out of my head.

"take a look at the invisible girl. here she is clear as the day; please look closely and find her before she fades away"
i'm fading away.
but it's of my own accord.


you don't listen
you don't care
you don't know

don't--don't, STOP IT.
No, go ahead
blow up
you don't care
go ahead and text your little self away



...I just thought what you should know.

and it's all my fault.