A snapdragon by any other name would smell as sweet

my favorite flower twas between a snap dragon or one of those maneating flowers. or that one that shoots its neurotransmitters at bugs, that one's cool too. let's just go with the snapdragon.

my dad's mother used to have these in her front yard. i remember as a little kid i could fit my fingers into slots that were formed by the petals of the flower and use the flower as a puppet. what could be better than a dragon puppet made out of a flower!? it's likely my fingers are too big now...

I wish I'd been a child of the 1990s--oh whoops, I am

Because I love the direction of the future. I want to be there and I want to rule it-- or at the very least exploit it. I'm too modern to live in the past. I never did fit in at those 80's or 70's themed parties...

better?

scourging my library for the saddest songs
to perpetuate these vague bad sentiments--
they're bad in that way that taking the last cookie feels bad:
except i'm the one taking the last cookie from myself.

blackbird, fly



fuck you adam. get something done you fuckhead.

day recap:

-lunch with professor robin lumsdaine--the baharian prince fellowship person.
how neat would it be to have the title "baharian prince"!? or any distinguishable title, for that matter.
ate baja fresh (score on free food and interesting conversation!)
learned a bit about brain teasers and job interviews
scored a large bottle of sprite, but not the burritos!
-took and did not as well as i wanted to on stat test...
well, i don't know that, but hey could be true.
i turned in my regression project
studied for the test, could have studied harder. always.
-played some ds--heckyes
-IBUS meeting at z burger. shouldn't have spent money on food, but whatev.
-Hindu festival of lights. very interesting. saw cate...performing? in the ceremony
-crushit! with garyvee. was incredibly blown away
or i feel that way, anyway
'mindfucked' was the term i used
i'm not sure what field to go into anymore
no more middlemen, eh?
-talked to katie palser, my love
discovered holly wants me to talk to her? i don't know how i feel about this
i wonder about rebecca sometimes

no more middlemen.
i'm very out of my skin today.
i hung out with ben a lot. we're forming a very unique bromance--i'm basing it mostly ont he fact that we saw the crushit presenttion together, whcih was a very exhillerating event. thus, we associate the feelings from that event we lived through together to our relationship. viola!

that sam guy seems like my type
quite and awkward? love it
or maybe that's just me being desperate
i'm alright with that i think
i'll be amazing for myself and won't need anyone else
and then
i'll be happy


what i wish for right at this moment is courage.